Things Fall Apart

I see long nights as my saviour 

from my feelings. 

When asked about what I am doing,

I only say I am listening to audiobooks. 

You have gone a long time ago,

I still stare at our photo. 

It makes me smile, I say.

Deep down I know that it aches. 

My best friend ask about me

She says she understands me.

I couldn't understand you.

I try to hide it by saying, 'no one does.' 

I bid farewell to my favourite clothes,

they give me nightmares now.

At least the window near my room

would offer me new existence

It doesn't ~ it's a mere expectance. 

I can't trust anyone, afraid of love again.

I only trusted someone till our end began. 

She says I am too afraid to let 

someone know me fully, twice.

I agree with her, it's not her fault. 

I don't want to tell myself 

that things fall apart

when it shouldn't have. 

My voice aches your presence

only to realise the absence in it.

I don't regret anything~ not even us.

I believe in true love but not for us. 

She believes in it. It's not her part. 

She always stood by me, but things fall apart. 

I don't have hopes now~ yet I hope in something. 

I trust in 'meant to be together'~ but for us nothing. 

I can go on writing about this 

but this isn't worth your time.

She will write a tale~ live to tell it.  

~Silver Hawk

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